clearly...

[warning]this is one of THOSE blogs..so yeah..[/warning]

[originally written 8/30/09]

i'm not clairvoyant to any degree. nor am i a prophetess or anything like that. however, i'm observant...apparently to a fault. anyway, God not only blessed me with the gift of sight..but with a gift of insight. as if natural sight isn't gift enough. i'm not complaining, but reality is a beast. being in complete knowledge of someone or something, outside of normal observation and study tends to wear on the emotions and the brain. the QUESTIONS i have..


wait..did i lose you?


to consolidate all that: i tend to see past what i know. the hardest place to apply this insight though, is to myself. in all honesty, not too many people can take being honest with themselves. it's so necessary though. you can't possibly be honest with Mama, Granny, Pastor, cousins, your significant other..the LORD without being honest with yourself. i personally don't like lying to myself. i can understand if i was wrong about something, and someone who's opinion i both trust or value OR the Lord Himself corrects me..BOOM. that's totally understandable. but knowingly lying to myself is inexcusable.


now..i said AAAAAAAAALL that to say this..


i applied some brutally honest insight to my life a few days ago. i almost cried. as i mentioned earlier, i'm not clairvoyant. but i know God has a set path for me in life. i was called out from BIRTH. (another blog for another day) so, i had to change stuff IMMEDIATELY. i'm usually very careful about who & what i allow into my circle. i'm nobody special, but i'm a firm believer in guarding my spirit and monitoring my influences. i really started putting stuff in perspective about ME. my questions to myself: who am i to even consider compromising Jesus for what i want to do? who am i to even deserve for Him to map my life/direct my path the way He has/does? who am i to be granted the gift of waking up day after day to turn around and consider trying to do what i want? what the HECK? i also thought about the scripture in Psalm 19 (and it reads): cleanse Thou me from secret faults.

you know..secret faults..the stuff we don't want anyone to know about? yeah..those. and let the record show..faults aren't sins. a fault is a flaw or imperfection. sin is blatant or deliberate violation of moral/religious law. anyway, more and more i'm realizing..my purpose, your purpose, everybody's purpose is so much greater than YOU or ME. i invite you to NOT let down on what you KNOW is the truth and what you KNOW is right. you could very well jeopardize your purpose, then life would be a waste. DWYL.


i'll say..i had some second thoughts about posting this, because of the opening of the up. i was tripping.

& contrary to what may be perceived, this one is directed at everyone and no one.

impromptu is always the best....tu. :/

forgive me for that title..

anyway..i posted a status update on Facebook that simply read:

"imperfect but in possession of the Perfecter life is a lesson love is a lecture Jesus Christ, the professor"

sidebar - it really sounds GREAT if you say it with a British accent like Dwayne Tryumf...(don't look at me like that..)


so..i just posted it. no particular reason..but it was on my heart & mind..stemming from Bible study earlier yesterday evening. however, the result of it was NUTS. i'm copying all the comments that ensued from this one little status.












my bad for it being so small..
can you see it?

just got reminded.

hope my bro Louis doesn't think i'm cheating on him. lol!


a month or so ago, my homegirl Liz & i did a freestyle on twitter. she posted it to her blog, and i just read back over it today. i wanna share it with you.

Liz in bold
me in uh..regular..

make sure you check Liz's blog out too: 2much2tell


it's time for rhythm and rhymes
the rivers of lines flowing through this mental of mine
in need of cerebral release to cause the madness to cease
peace is a must let me grab a pen because it's poetry or bust
i fight for the right to write, moving my pen through all hours of the night
what a plight this gift of words turn bringing thoughts to life with the verbs
action words for what i feel, words to action to turn feelings into real
reveal the innermost unspoken thoughts inhibitions ignored pop open faults
just to let go, let words flow, let emotions show, let momentum grow
not to mention that you just might blow adjust the gears just so to get that just right flow
words flow to stanza and stanza to verse, verse leads to the mic unfiltered and unrehearsed
verse after verse gets sprinkled on their minds Ms Who brought the new and put a wrinkle in their time
creased their foreheads with her very essence, gave them sight with her luminesence
insight from her life lessons that stressin was too depressin and just wakin up was a blessin
she was livin in heaven while she walked the earth, blessed and highly favored since birth
but life can hurt..the work can be a bit much can leave the spirit fragile to the touch
a wounded heart is a heavy burden to carry, and the state of merriment tends to vary
and "friends" are scary..family can be worse but we have a Savior who carries cares and wrote His love in a verse
He lived that love and died to redeem, He rose because even over death He offered us victory
He's stricken me with His grace and mercy everlasting I'm forever dwelling in the shadow that the cross is casting

encouragement...i hope..

wow.

the poem i recently posted entitled "hope" is now posted on FaithTalk Ministries. i'm completely honored. :)

'hope' on FaithTalk

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if you've ever been to an open mic.

hope.

so with all that's going on in the world
this girl
sought a beacon of light
reached for insight
to be granted a word
to share with the people
while our debt is gettin deeper
cost of life's gettin steeper
well when all else fails
hope is a keeper
a simple 4 letter word
that calms worries unheard
both a noun and a verb
peace when things get absurd
deemed a silly concept
by those extra serious cats
but how mysterious that
hope floats
like a well built boat
withstanding the waves and tides of trials
can't see for miles
but something inside you pushes you into another day
maybe sunshine will come another way
eyes to the sky cause we're hopeful
knowing one day we'll be granted what we hoped for
no more LESS talk let's speak MORE
share hope with your brother
speak peace with each other
and watch your vision reach a little bit further

(c)2008 kezia s.